Odd...

So all psychics (true ones) are notoriously sensitive to environmental changes including solar flares and the moon cycle. What does this have to do with empaths? Well, an empath is a type of psychic and as my spiritual guide will tells me, "Everyone has some psychic ability." I love when she says stuff like this, just off the cuff, like it's so simple and easy. At least once in every conversation I have with her, I lower my brow and slap my forehead for not knowing it already. But then again, no one can know everything and I am still learning as I go along.

One thing that no one seems to have an answer for is the strange way I've been feeling yesterday and today. Yesterday morning at 3am on the dot, I woke up mid panic attack. My lower stomach seized and cramped and then my upper stomach joined the party. My heart pounding, cold sweats, my face grey and my eyes bloodshot. Exactly how I want to spend time at 3 am. I can honestly say this was the absolute worst panic attack yet and I've had some doozies! I called on God and the arch angels and all my spirit guides and anyone I could think of to help me. I was sure I was going to die. But! I did not die!! Somehow I got through it and I give all credit to God and the angels and the spirits and anyone else who helped me.

The next day I felt awful and today I feel the same. My head feels like my brain is pushing out of my temples and like I'm swimming under water at the same time. I'm dizzy and foggy and drained of energy like I've been running miles while doing advanced calculus. In talking to some of my spiritual students and friends, some are feeling the exact same way with no explanation. My friend in NH is feeling it, my spiritual student in FL is feeling it too, and my spiritual teacher's partner is as well. But in saying that, my spiritual teacher isn't feeling it and my spiritual student in WI isn't feeling it either. WTF I say! No one seems to be able to pin point where it's coming from and why we're feeling like this.

So in a phone conversation with one of my spiritual students, he mentions the asteroid flying over Earth tonight and again, I want to smack my forehead. Could it be so simple? Could it be the 1.7 mile asteroid termed 1998 QE2 that has its own moon? Could it be ascension? Could it be the shift in energy? Well I have no idea. But if you have any ideas, feel free to leave them in the comments because all of us are stumped!

In light and love;
~A

Traits of Star People and Starseeds

Today I stumbled across a very interesting article that related to my last post discussing the symptoms of ascension. This resource was originally written by Brad Steiger. In it he discusses the Traits of Star People and Starseeds (Star Seed? - does it really matter?). I found it very interesting, interesting enough to share. Please feel free to leave your experience or questions in the comments. I look forward to connecting with you!

Are you a Star Person or Star Seed?
Star People By Brad Steiger
(Source: http://www.in5d.com/traits-of-starpeople-and-starseeds.html)
Brad told me that when he had compiled this list of attributes of 'Star People' he had no idea how many people would be affected by it. The number of people who currently fit the profile of Star Children - or those who are evolving - has risen greatly since Brad wrote his book. I have therefore removed the stats and just left the information - based on categories. If you do not fit into any of these categories - and feel a sense of disconnection and change within yourself and the universe you are still a Star Child. It is your journey through the Universe of this experiences.

Physical

• 65% are female: 35% are male
• Compelling eyes
• Great magnetism and personal charisma
• Sensitive to electricity and electromagnetic fields
• Lower body temperature than the norm
• Chronic sinusitis
• Extra or transitional vertebra
• Hypersensitivity to sound, light, odors
• Swollen or painful joints
• Pain in the back of the neck
• Adversely affected by high humidity
• Survived a life-threatening illness
• Involved in a severe accident or trauma

Emotional

• Feel a tremendous sense of urgency to fulfill their missions
• Experienced a sense of oneness with the universe
• Many have difficulty dealing with / or expressing emotions or have a chemical imbalance

Extraterrestrial Experiences

• All believe in life on other planets
• Most believe that have lived on another planet and can tell you about it
• At an early age they had some kind of extraterrestrial, religious or mystical experience
• Believe they have encountered alien entities of an extraterrestrial or multidimensional level or a being of light
• Telepathic communication with an alien entity - physical or non-physical
• They receive some form of communication from a higher source

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Symptoms of Ascension!

This was on my Facebook wall when I got home from vacation today. It was sent from one of the people I'm helping accept her unique and beautiful empath gifts. Does this give you chills like it did us? Like us, you might find you keep saying, "Omg" and "This is so weird!"

Are you experiencing any of these ascension symptoms? Do you feel something has fundamentally changed in your life? Do you feel the 'SHIFT' ?

Ascension Symptoms

1. Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; fee...ling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you.

2. A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.

3. Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D, while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.

4. Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can't be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the 'cleansing and releasing' hour.

5. Memory loss. A great abundance of short term memory loss and only vague remembrances of your past. You are in more than one dimension at a time, and going back and forth as part of the transition, you are experiencing a 'disconnect'. Also, your past is part of the Old, and the Old is forever gone. Being in the Now is the way of the New World.

6. 'Seeing' and 'hearing' things. You are experiencing different dimensions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.

7. Loss of identity. You try to access the Old you, but it is no longer there. You may not know who you are looking at in the mirror. You have cleared much of your old patterns and are now embodying much more light and a simpler, more purified divine you. All is in order, You are okay.

8. Feeling 'out of body'. You may feel as though someone is talking, but it is not you. This is our natural defence mechanism of survival when we are under acute stress or feeling traumatized or out of control. Your body is going through a lot and you may not want to be in it. My ascension guide told me that this was a way of easing the transition process, and that I did not need to experience what my body was going through. This only lasted a short time. It passes.

9. Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.

10. Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up. Know that this will eventually pass.

11. You don't feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, 'rebooting'. Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, 'doing' and 'making things happen' becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to 'bring' you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun.

12. An intolerance for lower vibrational things of the 3D, reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel 'sick' inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being 'pushed, to move forward; to 'be' and create the New.

13. A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.

14. A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.

15. You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.

16. Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.

17. A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain, especially in the abdominal area. A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inability to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.

18. Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.

19. A wanting to go Home, as if everything is over and you don't belong here anymore. We are returning to Source. Everything is over, but many of us are staying to experience and create the New World. Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.

20. Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone. This will pass and you will eventually feel very at Home like you have never felt before, as Home is now here.

21. Anxiety and panic. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behaviour patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviours you are losing are not needed in the higher realms. This will pass and you will eventually feel so much love, safety and unity. Just wait.

22. Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn't feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are 'seeing' through them. Hang in there.

23. Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dream state will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. My mother commented one day that she believed I was having nightmares in the daytime.

24. Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is 'heating' up as it burns off residue.

25. Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels great in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do. It is breaking your 'rut' choices and vibration.

26. You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many 'worst nightmare' aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into 'stretching' into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into 'toning down' aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself. This is your journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren't ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person.

Source : http://enlightenedawareness.wetpaint.com/page/Ascension+Symptoms

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Why do I Have to do This?

I get this question a lot and I've asked it a lot in my journey as well. I'm going to try to answer a few "whys" that I've had, as well as a few the people I mentor have had.

Why do I have to meditate?
The short answer? Because it's good for you, body and spirit. Meditation is key to developing your spiritual awareness. Regular creates an organized, calm mind, reduces ego influences, and increases inner balance (mental and spiritual). Many who meditate report a calmer demeanor in everyday life as well as stressful situations. Meditation helps with pain (acute and chronic) and also helps reduce many medical problems, like hypertension. Spiritually speaking, you thrive from meditation because it helps open links between your subconscious, third eye, and your connection to God the Creator (again, put in your own deity for your own comfort level). You will find your dreams become more vivid and intuitive as well as an improvement in  your perceptions.

Why do I have to ignore my ego?
The ego is fear and doubt. Do you really want to live with fear and doubt? I know I don't. By identifying the difference between my ego's thoughts and my thoughts, I've become a much happier person and my life has really opened up. I was always spiritual and sensitive, but wow... I can honestly say something amazing happens daily. Now that is a good life! But I digress...again. When you listen to your ego and accept those thoughts as your own, you close yourself off to your spiritual connection. This hurts, whether you realize it or not. We're all light beings and we're supposed to be close to God. It feels better when we do. There's two schools of thought that I put stock in. The first is to embrace your ego and bring it closer to God. The second is to ignore it all together and soon it will quiet. (Basically I tell mine to sit down and shut the f*%& up.) The ego will fight you to varying degrees with whichever path you choose, so use all your light tools and listen to your inner knowing light being.

Why do I have to put up a shield?
Because accepting other people's emotions can suck that's why! I don't want to spend time on negative emotions that are mine, let alone someone else's. I'm all about healing, but really I'm one person. I can't take on all that negativity, but I like shopping! So really, my choice is suck up other's emotions or to protect myself from feeling them in the first place. No brainer right!

Why do I have to ground myself?
Because negative emotions like to stick around and sometimes, they can get through a weakness in even the strongest of shields. The earth is SO amazing! When your feet touch the earth, it pulls away all that negative energy and turns it into healing, positive energy that can't hurt anyone anymore. Just imagine how all that positive energy could change the earth and the people of it! If you're still asking why please refer to my answer about shielding yourself.

Do I have to heal people?
Well no, but that's a little selfish and goes against the point doesn't it? I get that many empaths have withdrawn and tend to see the negative side of humanity first, but now that you know what you are (and I assuming you do because you're reading this) you can heal yourself first. After all, we can't heal anyone if we aren't at our optimum level. I do not recommend healing anyone until you have fully accepted your gifts and understand how to cleanse yourself of the ailments you take in to yourself. It's risky. Don't fool yourself into thinking healing is super easy. It takes a lot of will power, light, love, and energy.

Don't hesitate to contact me in the comments if you have questions or topics you'd like me to address.

In light and love;
~A

Mood Swing! Table 9!

Saturday night I'm calm, relaxed, and enjoying some Gordon Ramsey. (I just love him!) I am reflecting on the great day I've had when suddenly, I'm melancholy. Ummm... why am I suddenly feeling so low when less than a minute before I was fine. I make an effort to strengthen my shield, just in case. It seems strong. I still feel like a shining star. I'm pondering how negative feelings are getting to me and what I can do to stop them when I start crying. I'm not talking your regular crying when you're sad and you squeeze out a few tears. This was tsunami crying.

Big tears rolled down my face as sobs wracked my body. I feel like I'm at a funeral. I feel like someone has died. I feel hopeless, lost, inconsolable. It was horrendous. I even drew up my knees and curled myself into a ball, rocking back and forth from the anguish of it all. I moaned and cried like this for several minutes. Just as suddenly as it came on, it stopped. Just completely stopped and I was calm again. I wiped away my tears thinking, "What the f.....?"

For several days I had no idea why this has happened. No idea what it was about, what triggered it, or what caused it. Okay that's not entirely true. I did have a split second flash of an idea, but I didn't want to accept it and pushed it aside. It was kind of like when you realize you really love someone and then instantly think of them dying. That kind of thing.

Today, I was told my flash had actually happened. Now, I couldn't have prevented it, but I can make it better. That's just part of being a healer and the gifts I was born with I suppose, but you know what? That really sucked! To feel powerless to stop it, but be given the ability to take away the pain. Not cool. Guess I just found the other side of the coin.

In light and love;
~A

A New Empath's Story

Keep in mind I am very new to the fact I am an Empath. Accepting it and acknowledging it has changed my life. I’ll get back to that though. I knew around 7 or 8 years old that I was different from other kids. I didn’t understand in which ways, I just knew. People loved having me around I could change a room from gloomy to bright and cheerful in an instant.

There were many things I could not explain either I’d know things or feeling that something was just wrong. For example, there were a few family members I was close to who were dying from cancer. I would be in school suffering from bad stomach pains. My parents would run me to the hospital and after many tests nothing would be found. Of course I’d be accused of just trying to get out of school. Really ? Who enjoys going to the emergency room? I do not!

As I got older, the emotions pouring into me got harder to control. School was extremely difficult. The best way of describing it was my soul felt as If it was being pulled in every which way. Being the class clown is how I made it through the roughest years. If I could get the class to laugh, it was a pause in the emotions I was taking in. Almost like a drowning person coming up for their first breath of air.

Of course, I had that same thing many empaths have; sitting on a bus hearing a stranger’s life story or personal issues. This was kind of strange to me; never understanding why they needed to unload everything on to me, especially as a kid. For many years I thought you needed to be a psychiatrist or a bartender to hear everyone’s problems. I knew I had a big heart and I cared a lot about people in general. Talking isn’t my strongest trait so I never understood why.

There were so many negative feelings running through me and I could not sort them all out.  My parents did what, I guess, many have done when they don’t understand. I was sent to see a psychiatrist and was labeled as bi polar and post-traumatic stress disorder. And let the medication, begin either from the doctors themselves or from my own need to self-medicate for almost 30 years. Nothing ever worked I would feel even worse and more cut off from the world. So I stopped it all even the need to self-medicate.

Shortly after quitting medications I started getting chest pains. Once even hospitalized because I thought I was dying. The pain was intense and felt very real to me. Of course so many tests were run and the doctors couldn’t explain any of it. My mom suffers from chest pains.

About 2 months ago, I was watching a TV show when I heard about empaths feeling what others feel.  I had no idea what it was, how it worked, none of it. Off to the internet I went to look up anything I could about empaths and their abilities. The day I found out I realized I wasn’t crazy. I didn’t need medication. I just needed to understand what I was. That’s when the light came on and I was no longer in darkness. The feeling of belonging I will not ever forget either. It was the first time I felt that way. I no longer felt alone.

Honestly, when I first started reading about empaths, I was only looking for a way to shield myself from the stress and pain of others. I did find out how and it helped in ways I am still trying to understand. What I can say is that my life has changed dramatically since learning I’m an empath. Before I hid in the house. Depression was practically pouring out of my veins. There were days when I didn’t even see the sun. My life was full of gray moments with a few bits of brightness. Now my beautiful bright light fills my life with touches of gray here and there but no longer overwhelming. It is a beautiful world out there! 

*Disclaimer: We do not condone the use of self-medication and do not encourage anyone to being reduce, or discontinue the use of medication without consulting a physician. The story here is simply one man's tale meant to give hope, not to encourage or discourage any medical diagnosis or action.*

Aarah the Starseed's Story

I was nine years old the first time I saw them. I didn’t know who they were – these tiny, flitting, fluttering, blue-green balls of light, no larger than a marble – but I knew they were alive. I knew they weren’t merely lights, somewhere in the distance, but actual, living beings hovering just feet from me. And despite the strangeness of it all, I was not afraid.

I had woken up in the early hours of the morning. It was pre-dawn, and I should have still been fast asleep, but something told me to wake up. When I did, I had no idea what I was doing. I remember crawling out of bed and heading towards my bedroom door, my Rottweiler pal just a step or two behind me. When I stepped into the hallway, I was met by three of these…beings. They just hovered there, staring at me. I heard soft, gentle music in my head, accompanied simply by the word “Hello.”

I stood for a moment, staring back at them, and before I knew it, they were gone. I went back to bed feeling what I can only describe as tranquil. When I woke again several hours later, I told my mother about what had happened. She dismissed the entire thing as a “stupid dream” and sent me out the door. I did not speak of my experience with anyone for another ten years.

I’m told that this is a typical first experience for a child, though they seem to have visited me at an older age than what’s “average.” They visited me several times in their light forms over the next few years, each time leaving me with an intense feeling of serenity. Occasionally, I’d simply hear words or phrases in my head – I’d suddenly have information that I really had no business having, like the answer to a test that I didn’t bother studying for. One memory in particular stands out from the rest; in high school, the teacher asked if anyone knew what the word “Vermont” meant. No one knew, but suddenly I knew that “vert” is green, and “mont” is mountain, both in French – a language I had never taken, had never heard spoken, and knew nothing about. The words fell from my mouth as if someone other than me was speaking them, and every single person in that room was just as amazed as I was that I had that answer. During one of the early visits, they simple said, “We are your parents.” Another time, I was told, “You are from the stars.” I didn’t understand any of it!

I never said anything to anyone about these experiences or voices, for fear that I’d be diagnosed with some sort of mental disorder.

As I grew up, I never felt like I “belonged here.” And I don’t mean “here” like your average teenager means “here” – even though my home life left quite a bit to be desired, I had plenty of friends, was never bored on a Friday night, and always had more than enough to do. I fit in just fine with my peers, for the most part. But I knew I didn’t belong here. I just didn’t know what that meant, really. I didn’t know why I felt that way. Everywhere I went, it was the same feeling of “I should be somewhere else.”

I’d spend hours longingly stargazing. I’ve always been fascinated with the stars and the cosmos in general, and my nerdy tendencies are what eventually lead to me no longer fitting in with my peers. In a very short amount of time, and at an age when most girls are finding boys more interesting than anything else, I developed an obsession with things like spirituality, horticulture, meditation, and physics. I couldn’t get enough information about these things! I drank it up like water in the desert, but I lived in a rainforest and just couldn’t explain my thirst.

And the dreams I’d have! For as long as I can remember, my dreams have been tangibly vivid, full of sounds and colors and even smells. It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized that most other people don’t remember their dreams, let alone dream in color. (Such a shame!) For months, I had the same dream, at least two or three times a week:

I am standing, naked, on a beach. I do not look like me, but I know that the person on the beach is me. I can see what she sees, feel what she feels, and hear what she hears.

I walk forward into the ocean, until my feet no longer touch the sand, and then I swim deep into the darkness. I do not have gills, but I am not holding my breath – I am breathing water. I swim and swim, and suddenly, a large sea turtle appears underneath me and offers to let me hitch a ride. Grabbing his shell, he brings me to the mouth of a very large underwater cave.

The cave is full of what I perceive to be treasure – it is mangled pieces of metal, shrapnel, orbs, and even what appear to be jewels, coins, and precious metals. There is also a large, circular, standalone stone walkway of sorts, with symbols carved around the edges. I move past all of these items and pick up a golden goblet with one single purple stone set into it. I hold the goblet to my chest, just over my heart, and bright blue light shoots out.

Moving towards the mouth of the cave, I can see my sea turtle buddy pacing frantically. In the distance, there is a large animal of some sort swimming through an enormous kelp forest, and he has his eye on us. My turtle friend and I do our best to move quickly, but we fail, and are dragged into the kelp forest. I swim as hard and as fast as I can, but I get stuck in the large, thick kelp leaves; I can see the beast coming for me and in a panic, I thrash and kick but I am never able to break free.

Usually, I wake just before the beast eats me. Sometimes, I’m not so lucky, and I experience my own death. Regardless, I grasp that golden cup to my heart through it all.

I never understood this dream. It never made any sense to me, and I never told anyone about it. I had it repeatedly throughout my teenaged years, and into early adulthood. Though it should be noted that I have, for my entire life, had an unreasonable phobia of seaweed (or anything in water, for that matter) to the point that I did not step foot in the ocean until I was sixteen years old. To this day, I will still not go more than ten feet or so from the edge of a pond or lake, “just in case.” This intense fear of water vegetation never had any basis in experience in this life and I could never justify why it was such a terrifying thing for me.

By the time I was old enough to get a job, I found myself sitting in an office with a pretty middle-aged woman with the most gorgeous long, wavy, blonde hair I have ever seen. We’ll call her Shelly. She really wasn’t much to look at in the physical sense, but something about her just gave me a sense of peace; I instinctively trusted her.

She was outspokenly spiritual, and one day, I asked about the crystals she had on her desk. She gave me a very matter of fact answer, as though she expected me to mock her, but I was genuinely interested – there was one, in particular, that I had been fighting the urge to touch for several days. When I told her this, her eyes lit up, and she handed it to me. She said “I’ve known that that stone wasn’t mine! I got it because I knew I had to, but I knew it wasn’t for me. It must have been for you this whole time!”

I was dumbfounded. But that was the beginning of a friendship that would last years and teach me more than I ever realized I didn’t know. I still have that little piece of black tourmaline, and many others, along with an understanding of that dream and of who I really am.

Shelly would always ask me about my dreams, and I was always happy to tell her about them! She was the first person I told my sea-cave dream to, and she was dumbfounded. She asked if I would be willing to speak with a friend of hers about this dream, and I agreed. That weekend, we went to see Shelly’s friend, whom we’ll call Marie. To this day, Shelly insists that she never told Marie anything about what I had told her, only that she thought Marie might be interested in meeting with me.

Marie was an older woman, easily in her mid to late sixties, and she greeted me with “Namaste, Starseed.” I had no idea what the second word meant, and I replied with “Namaste. Excuse me, but what did you call me?” She just looked at me. She wasn’t looking at me, more like looking around me. I had no idea what she was looking at. Finally, after several minutes, she handed me a cup of tea and sat down. I will never, ever forget what happened next.

“Tell me about these dreams.” I didn’t know what to say, though I suddenly heard myself blurting every single dream I’d ever had out at this woman. She nodded a lot. She squinted a lot. And by the time I got to my sea-cave dream, she was looking surprised an awful lot.

I recounted that dream to her multiple times over the course of several hours. Each time, she took down notes. She asked me questions about things I couldn’t imagine being related, like how often I got sick, and whether or not I found myself being drawn to things without realizing it. She asked about whether or not I’d ever had moments where I “just knew” or if I’d ever experienced senses in an odd manner.

She then proceeded to tell me that she has known about me for several years. She tells me that I once lived in Atlantis (yes, that legendary island), and that my dream is likely the story of my death – it is me experiencing one of my past lives.

She asks me whether I’ve ever heard of Reiki; I shake my head, “No.” She tells me that just because I do not know what the word refers to doesn’t mean that I don’t know what it is. She sits me down, whispers something while waving her hands around me, and finishes with “Namaste.” Suddenly, I feel different. I feel light and airy. I feel like I’m not me. And frankly, I’m completely freaked out.

She puts a crystal in one of my hands, and a cup of herbal tea in the other. I squeezed that stone, took a sip of tea, and suddenly felt better.

Shelly and I drove home. I felt awkward and confused, but like I had more clarity than ever before. When I went to sleep that night, I had a series of strange dreams. But I never once had that sea-cave dream again.

The next few years became little more than a series of strange day-to-day events. Walking through the bookstore, books about the pyramids, or aliens, or Atlantis would fall off the shelves as I walked by. I was usually so freaked out by it that I’d leave it where it fell and walk away. If I touched it, then I’d have to read it, right? I wasn’t ready for that. But for years, these books would literally throw themselves at me.

So one day, I picked one up. I read and read and read, right there in Barnes & Noble, until I finished the book. And that’s when I first learned about the Arcturians. Suddenly, everything made sense. I didn’t know why, but it just all made sense.

These beings of light – the Arcturians – the way they communicated, it just all made sense. Then I saw that word again: starseed. It rang so true, and I could feel something…happening inside of me. I became obsessed with this word. I started furiously searching for information about starseeds; about Arcturus and the Arcturians. I soaked up every single drop of information I could find. Unfortunately, there wasn’t much out there, and I had to turn inward.

I focused on meditation and opening myself to communicate with them, and when they came, I was amazed. Suddenly, my head was filled with sounds and words and phrases that confused me – were these my thoughts? Is this just wishful thinking? Am I really communicating with beings from some other dimension? Am I just plain crazy?! None of it made sense, and yet it all made perfect sense.

For several months, I pushed the sounds and words out of my head, dismissing them as my mind playing tricks on me. I became frustrated, and I found myself dreading meditation time. Eventually, I stopped all together, convinced that I was certainly crazy. I felt silly. I felt stupid. I felt like maybe, just maybe, this was what it was like to be schizophrenic. So, I gave up meditating; I gave up trying to figure all this out and just stopped.

And then I met someone – we’ll call him Paul – who, during our very first conversation, said something so simple but so profound that I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was most certainly not crazy. After a fifteen minute conversation, Paul very matter-of-factly said, “So, you’re not from …around here, either, are you?” I asked what he meant. He seemed embarrassed, but I asked again – “What do you mean, Paul?” And his response floored me: “You’re from the stars. I am, too.” 

I felt a wave of heat wash over me, and I was overjoyed. I cried. Paul cried. We hugged for what seemed like an hour, and when we were finally ready to let go, we laughed. I’d spent my whole life feeling like I didn’t belong here, like I was never really in my body, but somehow just above and behind it. And yet here I was, suddenly having a very human experience with someone who felt exactly how I felt; who’d experienced the same exact thing I’d experienced. It was an incredibly humbling and exhilarating experience. And for ten years, Paul and I have remained in close contact, sharing our experiences as starseeds incarnated on Earth. Until very recently, I hadn’t spoken of my experiences to anyone other than Paul.

These days, I have no doubt that I am a Starseed. I have no doubt that I’m not from here. Over the years, I have seen my people – the Arcturians – and have communicated with some of them. Through astral travel, I’ve seen my home planet – which is actually a small planet that orbits the star Acrturus – and I have been on board Arcturian starships. I have honed healing skills that lay dormant inside of me my entire life. Always the empath, the Arcturians have helped me to control my empathetic tendencies and to focus myself on making a difference. They’ve refused to show me my path on this planet, but they have certainly helped me clarify my purpose here, and they’ve helped to keep me pointed in the right direction.

These days, after a decade of meditation, Reiki attunements, and focusing on keeping my soul open, I communicate fluidly with these beings of light. They still visit me from time to time, usually when I begin forgetting that I have a purpose here. They point me in the direction of the information that I need, and are always more than willing to assist me when necessary.

I am still amazed and awestruck with the fact that I am not from this planet. I’m not even from this plane. And at times, I feel significantly overwhelmed with the idea that I am Arcturian, and the Arcturians’ role in the solar system is to keep a sense of balance. I’m not quite sure that I’m ready for such a role, but I certainly identify with it.

At the end of the day, I am Arcturian; I am a Starseed, and I am blessed.